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Quit the fucking whining.

2012-01-31T00:48:00.001+08:00

Hello.
I r here today to talk about how people look down on RP.

Well, RP is actually not a really bad poly at all.
Sure, our reputation is real bad, but hey, you'll never know until you actually step into the school to become a Republican right ?
Stop giving and spreading all your stupid views about RP being a "last place polytechnic" or "the same as ITE".
Im not looking down on ITE, but we're nothing like what you guys are talking about outside.

C'mon,
Im sure everyone of you here cant do powerpoint presentation slides in less than a hour eh?
Im sorry to say that in RP, we're fucking trained to do that.
Why ?
BECAUSE RP IS FUCKING TRAINING US TO FACE THE WORKING SOCIETY.
At least we have a feel about being in an office, working in a group.

We only have 7 hours in school,
3 different meetings.
It may seem as though its nothing to you, oh 7 hours is nothing compared to what other polys have.
Other polys may have only 1 hour lesson for 1 day in a week, but seriously ?
Does that help with your learning at all?
Fucking think about it -.- .

Teachers in RP they dont teach.
They want us to learn everything on our own, make mistakes, and help us after that.
That does not mean we're a bad school either.

Lol.
Just think about it, really.
Every school has its ups and downs
Just because RP is the youngest poly in Singapore does not mean we're the worst.
YOUR poly has been the youngest poly before once too
WAS IT A BAD POLY THEN ? LOL.

Fuck.
Use some brains people.
Stop thinking that RP is a bad poly.

****Anyway its just my own view so screw the people who dont fucking think im right. As long as i think im right, i dont fucking give a shit about what you guys say. bye

Hayhayyyyyyyy

2012-01-25T01:18:00.001+08:00

HAY EVERYBODEHHHHHHHHHHHH <3

Owellz, been awhile since I posted right, hahaha .
I bet everyone misses me rightz

Well, things have NOT been going well for me recently
I'd prefer not to talk about it though, haha.

Past few days have been awesome + cool fr me.
Met up with Shuqi, Kenny and Clement the most for the past week.
Gonna see them again ltr ! ;) .
Got manyyyyyyyyyyy manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy angpow moneh.
How much did everyone get?
Teehee :D

Ohwell, im hiding to bed now, because I think im falling sick soon,
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Merry Christmas and a Happy new year.

2011-12-28T17:26:00.000+08:00

With a blink of an eye, 2011 is ending.
Of course, we all thought 2011 would be a long year.

2011 has been an average year for me.
I was taught many many different things this year.
I was taught that love is not everything.
I was taught that friends and family is more important than anything in this world.

Well,
This year,
I was enrolled into Republic Polytechnic.
I met a class with wonderful people,
I met people whom I can trust, people whom are those I would call "true friends".

Also,
This year,
I know in this world, people are not as true as they may seem.

I hope that 2012 would be another wonderful year for me.
And I refuse to do any dedications cause I'm lazy and that I can :P .

Bye,
Merry Christmas and Happy new year !

Some of the inevitable things in life

2011-12-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

There are many set backs in life.
Nothing can be done to avoid it.
We just have to admit that it will happen and that we must somehow find a way to overcome it.

I've had MANY set backs already this year.
I hope next year I would have lesser.
But I hope that they'll still happen because we would all need it to continue with our lifes, no ?

6 FUCKING MONTHS AGO

2011-12-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

My heart might just stop beating one day.
Who knows where this is driving me.
Its fucking driving me nuts.
Im fucking stressed over someone who don't even give a fuck about who I am to him, what the fuck I do to help him and why the fuck am I doing this.

The same fucking guy who broke my heart 4 fucking months ago.
The same fucking method used to break my heart 4 fucking months ago.
The same fucking ignoring he's giving me 4 fucking months ago

6 FUCKING MONTHS AGO I WAS STILL A FUCKING HAPPY GIRL UNTIL YOU FUCKING APPEAR, BITCH.
JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY FUCKING LIFE ALREADY.
FUCK IT.

WHERE THE FUCK WOULD I BE IF YOU DIDN'T FUCKING APPEAR 6 FUCKING MONTHS AGO?

OH LET ME FUCKING TELL YOU.

I WOULD BE FUCKING HAPPY LEADING A FUCKING NORMAL LIFE NOW WITH A HEART THATS STILL FUCKING COMPLETE
I WOULD BE FUCKING ATTENDING SCHOOL EVERY FUCKING DAY
I WOULD BE FUCKING EXCELLING IN MY STUDIES
I WOULD FUCKING HAVE MY SELF-ESTEEM BROUGHT UP HIGHER THAN IT FUCKING IS NOW
I WOULD FUCKING HAVE MORE TEARS LEFT
I WOULD FUCKING STOP BEING SO EMO

MOST IMPORTANTLY I WOULD BE FUCKING HAPPY NOT KNOWING YOU FUCKING EXIST,
FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU
FUCK YOU

YOU FUCKING KNOW WHO YOU FUCKING ARE.
I DONT FUCKING WANT TO FUCKING TALK TO YOU ANY FUCKING MORE
I DONT CARE IF THIS SOUNDS FUCKING CHILDISH.

I'LL FUCKING CAPS LOCK YOU TO YOUR FUCKING DEATH.
IM PRACTICALLY SCREAMING INSIDE MY FUCKING HEAD WHILE FUCKING TYPING THIS

I REPEATED THE WORD FUCK TOO MANY TIMES.

WELL FUCK YOU -'-

Ohai

2011-12-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Ohai guise.

Blogging before bed and downloading maple Trollzzzzzzzzzzz

Audi is pissing me off Dx .

School is pissing me off Dx .

My best module of sem 2 is pissing me off Dx

Taking pictures of my baby hamsters now ! :D

Im happy that they're growing <3

Hope they become independent soon so i can give 'em to my sister who has been pestering me for them xD

Giving them to my sister first because wellz, she's my only sister and we're related by blood, HAH.

Owell, i haz marketing ut tomorrow so i go sleep now bai

2011-12-04T07:06:00.001+08:00

sup ,
blogging through my phone now so no proper capital letter before every sentence, boohoo.

at standard chartered run 2011 being a volunteer now ! 8D .
I'm with Jolene, Zachary and Yaoguang whilst Siling, Weiling, Jiaying and Linda are somewhere else...

I'm so dead tired now.
just wanna drop dead right nowz.

baiiiii. blog againz soon

Frequent updates

2011-11-28T10:43:00.002+08:00

Hello ! I have decided to update frequently.

Its just a random decision though, I might get tired of this by tomorrow, TROLOL .

Anyhoo,

Realised that my previous post caused some Hooha so..

1. Mind your own business, I may be referring to your group but I am not talking about you.

2. Please read properly before trying to comment.

3. I used perfect english, with no vulgar, so please do not use vulgar on me.

I did not wake up early in the morning just to see your vulgar-filled post . :)

The most I'd do is that I would stop hanging out with you guys.

And btw, the person I said I was close to is, Joey.

Not Marc.

So please, Think before you fucking type :)

wassup broooooooo

2011-11-27T23:44:00.006+08:00

Wassup everybody .

Seeing its ALMOST December, I decided to post because of the following reasons :

1. I want Jolene to see that I blog without singlish *hi jolene!! -waves frantically-*

2. I felt like it

3. The only place I can vent without anyone bothering me is right here in my blog :(

Well.

Im here to update about my studies *yay..*

Owellz,

I'm not doing a good job in school, but compared to last semester, my grades improved quite a bit, except for Business Statistics though.

I mean, I dont hate the faci but I hate that module and I bet everyone feels the same :'( .

Though, I love Financial Accounting and I'm making up for my Business stats there...

But I know it wouldnt be enough to cover for my overall business stats grade and I might have to go year 4, sobsob.

Here comes the emotional part :

The month of November (i know it hasnt ended but it should end now because i said so Dx !) was a TERRIBLE one seriously.

Things were going SOOOOOOOOO smoothly, until one day, I decided I would be retarded and ruined my life and my mood on a particular day which I cant remember.

Anyhoo, lets talk about a specific group of people that I would name Group A . Lame name, but deal with it.

Wellz,

I hung out a lot with Group A in October and early November quite a lot -- and that is until I decided to be retarded and ruined my blablablablabla.....

Okay you get the point , I know !

Well (i've been saying or rather, typing, well too much now havent i ?),

I feel a drift between us.

They like to do stuff that I dont like or have 0 interest in.

They all Dota together, and I cant, because I hate that game and to be honest I hate the guts of people who play that game.

But I still gave my very best to hang out with them , being positive and all like how they taught me to,

& to be honest, im only close to 1 person in that group.

So I often feel left out,

Like yeah, its understandable because to me, they're speaking some sort of alien language (dota -_-) that I dont really understand .

But still I tried my best to listen and digest everything.

Another thing is, I'm always last on the list for them.

Which makes me wonder if I'm really a friend of theirs.

Wellz, (again-_-)

They're going out tomorrow and no one bothered asking me,

But its okay because I dont feel like doing anything tomorrow other than go for dinner with my dear ex classmates which I have , also , been neglecting because of Group A .

I tried my very best not to show disappointment in my face (in my pixels, LOL)

But I think I've had enough.

I guess I just cant fit in,

Never did, never will.

I dont blame anyone.

I blame myself for being such a negative loser.

ANYWAY ON THE BRIGHT SIDE,

SENTOSA ON TUESDAY BECAUSE OF OUR HOSPITALITY AND TOURISM MODULE,

WINNER = ME .

So bye

Wishful thinking.

2011-11-07T19:06:00.003+08:00

I've been wondering a lot today.

Is it all just my wishful thinking ?

Its true I have awesome friends,

But do they place me in their heart at all ?

Or do I just get forgotten like every other friendships I used to have?

Is it true that there's no such thing as true friends ?

I used to believe so much in that.

I want to continue believing in that.

But so many things happened.

Its making me doubt my decision.

Nothing can change my mind now.

Hello everybodyyyyyyyyyyy

2011-11-07T00:23:00.003+08:00

So much has happened recently.

Where should i start from hmm ?

Maybe i should start from School, then i'll move on to friends then i'll go back into love :) .

School

School wasn't the best thing that happened in my life ever since Sem 1 ended..

Not being in W24J is like.. Something is missing, y'know what im saying?

No one's there to laugh at me when i go into class anymore

No one's there to pack food up with me anymore

No one's there to talk to me anymore :'( .

The only good thing about my new class is that there're a few nice people from my class and that Jolene is in my class and Siling and Hazreena are just beside me, which is a relieve in so many ways *phew*

I'm still skipping class as usual, or maybe worse than last sem..

I guess there's nothing much about school anymore. :D

Friends

There're 2 parts to this ! Lets start w part 1 ayeeeeeeee .

Part 1 :

Candice and I are friends again !

I think the happiest is Candy though , now she dont need to feel like she's inbetween or whatever she has been feeling or not feeling, LOL .

We may not be as close as before, but im sure that things would go back to how it was and how it should be.

I just never thought that we would become friends again after what stupid things I did 6 months ago........................................

Well, as the saying goes,

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED ~~~~

Part 2 :

Recently been exploring around Singapore with my sistasssssssssssss

Went Clementi with Joey, Ryan & all for 2 days and I got lost in the mall thanks to the missing level 3 and Marc's stupid directions .

Was at Marsiling yesterday with Siling, Yaoguang, Evangeline, Sookhar and Weiling for some singing session :D:D

Very funnnnnnnnnn must go back :D:D:D

Love

I HAVE NOTHING TO ADDRESS IN THIS BECAUSE I AM STILL SINGLE AND FOREVER ALONE,

Though, I seem to like someone else again although i promised myself 9328904045 times that i wont fall for the same person twice.

But i dont want to let him know and lose him again like the other time.

It was him that made me feel so negative, and also him (and with Joey's and Siling's and everyone else's advices and all) that made me feel positive and that made me forget about him too !

So why am i making myself feel so fxxking miserable again ? :'( .

I know its impossible between us, i never thought that something would happen between us anywayz :P .

Im just happy this way.

But recently i just keep making myself moodless because of this .

*slaps self*

Gotta wake up nowzzzzzzzzzzzz XT

Owell, we have come to the end of my monthly (LOL) posts. Come back again in December. bye .

To my dear friend,

2011-09-14T02:49:00.003+08:00

Sorry for irritating you all the times.

Times with you were fun.

I really enjoy every moment with you.

I still cant forget about that incident a few months back.

I'll never forget it.

I kept helping you with almost everything recently.

Everyone asked me why im so kind and how come i could tolerate it.

Maybe because it is out of pity and maybe a small part of my heart still has you inside.

Last long with your new girlfriend.

Divorce? :/ .

2011-09-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

My sister and I were discussing about whether my mom and dad would get a divorce or not just now when my mom went to the toilet after dinner.

The truth is : i dont really wish for my parents to divorce because i dont wanna feel so guilty inside.

Yes, i know i havent been treating my father like my father for the past few months after our quarrel.

I dont want things to still be the same..

I wanted so bad last time for my parents to divorce, but now that i've grown up, i dont feel the same anymore...

I just wanna be with my mom and dad and sister, like how a happy family should be like.

I dont wish for more than that.

Even if we were poor, i would want all of us to be poor together.

My dad aint the most perfect dad you can find in this world, but he's still a great father.

He wasnt the first person i called when i got my PSLE and O level results.

But he was the one who told me i have already done my best and i did a good job.

He even gave me the phone that he was using because i really liked it after i got my PSLE results and got himself a lousy phone instead.

My dad stopped education at Sec 2 to help his family you see, and he feels that achieving 204 in PSLE is a wonderful thing and he wants to celebrate it.

I still remember his smile when he told me I did a great job.

His eyes were shining like he was really proud of me.

He didnt do the same to my sister when she got her results.

He didnt do much when I got my O levels though.

Maybe because i've grown up.

But on the day i was going to get my O level results, he went out super early just to get me my new iphone 4.

But the results didnt came out as perfect as it was supposed to be.

I remember there was once,

I woke up to my mom and dad quarreling.

I cried because I was scared.

I saw my sister crying from the other room too,

then she ran into my room when my mom and dad werent noticing.

Then my sister told me that she heard my mom and dad talking about divorce, but my dad just stood up and left.

My mom came into my room and comforted me.

I cried.

Awhile later, my dad came in, talked to me and i cried even harder at what he said.

Normally, my dad would comfort and talk to me whenever i quarreled with my mom.

He would tell me i was wrong, asked me apologise to her, let her calm down and all.

This year, i really blew it.

I deepened the 'hatred' everyone in this household had for my dad.

Because of one quarrel, EVERYTHING changed.

I regret pushing him.

I regret hitting him.

I regret shouting at him.

I wanna get my karma for it.

Im so unappreciative of the things he has done for me, the love he has showered on me.

I understand him because he is my dad and he is just like me.

I dont know how to face him because he's just as stubborn and as ignorant as me and I know he wont listen to me at all.

I dont hate my dad.

I love my dad.

You must be wondering, why am i posting about only my dad?

Because my mom has done so much for me.

Too much that it would take years to post it up.

I really hope one day i would pluck up all my courage and tell my parents everything.

memorable memories

2011-09-03T02:17:00.001+08:00

I still remember how you tried to cheer me up after I broke off the ring I cherished most at that time.
your o level year but you spent most of your time trying to talk to me nicely.
if only I was more appreciative of your efforts , we might still be contacting now.

you said : sorry I can't go out , other time ?

but a few hours later when you know i was really down -- you said : hey xt lets go USS tomorrow
I was really stunned. you were willing to pay for my expenses..
& all I did that day was to nag at you.

I asked -- why're you doing this for me ?
You stroked my cheek and said : because I know you were feeling upset.

you have absolutely no idea how happy I was when you actually thought of me.

I left USS crying cause I knew it was over when you just left without saying anything. I wasn't able to leave anything with you. but you left something with me.

I still have the tickets from that day and I'll always remember how much you spent on me. if we ever meet again, I don't know how I'd face you.

they say "your first love would be the most unforgettable"
you may not be my first boyfriend , but you are still my first love.

I just wish I would stop taking things for granted.

Bobo~ ? Rofl, dont make me laugh

2011-08-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hey Bobo~ ,

Recently i keep dedicating my posts to you

Honoured or not ?

Grow up a bit ley,

Below havent grow hair ?

Your below balls kena pulled out by others sibo ?

Not happy, 98563878.

I wait for you. :)

You wanna play?

I fucking play with you.

I fat or not you huanlo ?

I got huantio you sibo,

Chiibye.

Mai come here ka so much jiao wei when people never huantio you hor, xiao di di .

Get a fucking life

Want insult me , go ahead,

Mai anyhow insult my friend and my friend's mom hor,

Chiibye.

They both got huantio you bo ?

Nabei -'- .

Come talk to me after you grow some fucking balls la hor, knn.

Internal conflicts

2011-08-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

Before I start blogging,
A small little note for this Bobo~ person in my tagboard.
Arent you a little bored of stalking this dead blog like everyday?
Rofl..
Get a life.
Go out or something.
No one wants to stoop to your level and insult you, but you're forcing people to do so.
Please....
Dont have friends? Get some.
Make friends with your family or something.
& stop stalking.
Seriously ?
You must be some 14 year old who have nothing better to do but to come to my blog to tag on a tagboard in a blog that no one , even I , read .
Go study or something ok ?
If not land up in lousy school dont cry to anyone.
:)

Ok.
To start with the real post --
Stuff happened this week.
Many stuff..
So many internal conflicts between everyone.
So sick of them.
But they're solved now ^^ .
Hope the KOTR ltr would go smoothly with no arguments/conflicts whatsoever.

Went to Partyworld just now with Jingwen and Brendon ^^.
Then went to Scape to look for Evan, Jingting, Zachary, Yongquan, Yao and YH but he go already !! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . >:( .
Had fun overall today ^^ .
Cabbed home with Z, JW and Donovan .

Haha, Back to the conflict thing.
Its affected me so bad that and to top it off i was late for school for my UT . So i had to take a cab..
More things happened after UT though..
Didnt want to go study in a boring library, so i decided to go find Evan, Jingting, Yongquan, Yao and YH instead..
Upon reaching in less than 10 mins, Siling sent me a saaaaaaaaaaaaaaad message that brought me to tears immediately lor !!
So embarassing to cry infront of people >:( .
Never did that before though but i couldnt control it anymore....................................................................

But its ok because its all over ^^ ~~
So is my UT !!!
I can finally party alone at home in the morning, hahahahahaha

Cant wait for KOTR later .
Seriously need some bonding session ^^ .
Alright, go chiiong my fruits basket now and sleep when my laptop batt runs out !
Byebye <3

This one's for you ♥

2011-08-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

This post is for my lovely class, W24J ♥

Dear class,

I used to despise everyone so much when i first entered except for the 4 people who were in my own group on the first day.

I still remembered the first time i walked into the classroom. Everyone was so stranger to me and I thought "I would never be able to fit into this class just like every of my other classes"

We've come so far from where we've started.

I still remember every moment we had in class.

It doesnt matter if it is happy , sad , angry , what not.

Ah Im crying already !!

I really love everyone in this class.

Everyone make me feel so belonged and loved.

From the most important to the least.

It didnt really matter who it was,

It meant so much to me that you all believed.

I tried so much to hold my tears back today in class

If I could, I would do anything to bring all 26 of us back into one class again for the next three years.

Who cares if we are in different courses or not ,

As long as at the end of the day we can be in the same class together, gather for 1 hour , 30minutes, it is enough for us to tell each other about our day and all.

6 months is not enough at all !!

I swear it.

There're just a few awesome people in my class that i HAVE to mention.

Really,

Siling, Ashraf, Weiling, Jingting, Evangeline, Jiaying, Zachary, Jolene. And basically everyone else.

I really need to thank the few people on top, giving me smiles everyday.

Making me feel that going to school is not a burden.

I doubt my next class would be so nice.

If I could be in the same class as anyone next semester, I think i will cry my head off the first day of school !

Who knew that 6 months would be so short when actually we dreaded going to school everyday.

We mustmustmustmustmust meet up everyweek !!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ W24J

Love you guys okay !

Hello hello hello

2011-08-13T05:40:00.002+08:00

Hello !

Im blogging in the middle of the night at 5.30 am

Trolol.

Everyone is asleep now..

Yup.

7 little pigs are in my room sleeping like pigs now wtf .

I decided to stay up because idw them to mess with my things afterwards, HAH

School

Had a fun day after school yesterday with Jingting , Evangeline , Sookhar , Siling , Vincent , Yaoguang , Yanghorng , Weiling , Zachary and Yong quan @ Seoul garden to celebrate Evan's advanced birthday, teehee .

Ate and drank a little too much of food and PLAIN WATER.

YES , im drinking plain water now because recently I've been coughing like mad because my illness has been evolving into different stages, which is scary because i dont wanna cough like previously :( .

I posted on Twitter that day that I really like it when people pat on my back if I coughed or what, The first (and only) person who did that was Linda !

After that, at my house, Yaoguang did that to me but then it was a little too hard to be called "a pat"

Also, the semester is ending.

Which means we have to change class soon, BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :( .

W24J has changed a lot since the first day.

Everyone changed too .

We all started hanging out with people we didnt thought we would hang out with at the end of the semester.

We all started having little conflicts that would bring the whole class spirit down.

We all started trusting each other, comforting each other falls after falls.

We all started to bond.

However, there'll always be a day we separate :( .

And who knew the day would just be around the corner ?!

Monday would be our last day together, nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~

I bet if we all had a choice, we would choose to stay together as a class than to separate from each other and get to know new people again.

I know i would.

Love

Well, recently a lot has been on my mind because of many conflicting issues,

I have to say something though - I dont have any absolute person in my mind now because i cant think of one..

But still, There is SOMEONE in my mind

Yup , its someone who'll never read my blog cause he doesnt know i have one + he has a gf so i dont really show much to him either soyea,..

Life

Life has been great recently i guess..

I rarely touch my phone now.

I rarely go out now too -.- .

I started drinking plain water, hehe

Ok, I guess thats all for my boring life.

Shall await for the sun to rise before chasing everyone home so i can sleep , HEHE.

Jokes.

Look at the perfect life im living in right now.

2011-07-31T20:17:00.004+08:00

Hey guys !
Havent blogged in a while (i think..)
Im here to blog about what happened on Friday because my lovely sista told me I should hehe
My iTunes is spamming lady gaga songs currently..
I dont know why.
But that has nothing to do with what im about to post HAHA

Ok so here's what happened on Friday!

Wanted to meet Joey for breakfast at 6am but hehe we both didnt manage to wake up on time.
Supposed to meet Siling and Michelle to take MC together at AMK polyclinic but HEHE i was too lazy to go so far.
Was going to meet them at 11.30 but I woke up at 11.32 instead ! :D
So i went to take my own MC at a clinic nearby my house
It took me only 15mins to wait and they took , whut , 2hours ?
Bus-ed down to AMK and had my gogo franks, yummmmmmmmmmmy.
Then Michelle went to meet her friend and Siling and I decided to go Dhoby to look for Weiling because she reached a little too early !
Wanted to wait for Sook har at Toapayoh but she asked us to go first.............
Had Just acia with Siling, Sookhar, Weiling, Zachary & YH and yes it was a nice meal because we skipped school for it and it tastes delicious fyi
Er.. Then we went to vivo for party world and thanks to my sore throat i couldnt sing, aw :(
After that we parted....
Siling, Sookhar, Zachary and I decided to go for steamboat at bugis /yay
Then something epic happened..................
An aunty was selling us tissue paper right,
Then she asked Sookhar if she was married.
So she pointed to Zachary after hesistating awhile.
Siling and I were laughing at the side so badly...
Slacked until 11pm and trained home~
Sookhar combed my hair on the train!
Just like my mom~~~~

kla
i love jingwen.
she say want to go all around singapore with me and explore all the student meals that we can have.
cant wait ok.

go back tag exp now , BB

Insomnia

2011-07-21T03:59:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep !!!
life has been wonderful these days.
I love my class.
good night

HELLO SUNSHINE

2011-06-09T16:00:00.002+08:00

THE EARTH SAYS HELLO !!!

HI GUYS .
HAVENT BLOGGED FOR SO LONG LOL.
I FEEL SO HAPPY AND CAREFREE NOW WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Life has been normal lately ,
Like yeah .
Pool --> School --> Pool --> School --> Pool --> Sleep o_O
Oh shit my laptop cannot enter myrp website, HAHA
But i guess its ok .
I dont really care either :P .

Anw, going meet Clement and his friend soon for pool.
Gonna have fun :B .

Pool is fun in a way.
I play pool cause i vent anger on the balls... ROFL
I know its a funny reason as to why i play pool .
Er....................................................

HAHA
ANYWAY, LIKE I MENTIONED ON TOP ,
I FEEL SO CAREFREE NOW , WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
WHY ?!

Because i finally let go of a friendship that i never wanted in the first place, rofl
kthxbai

So angry

2011-05-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

HI ALL
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOO ANGRY NOW SO IM GONNA FUCKING VENT MY ANGER HERE, YEA

FIRST OF ALL ,
I have been hanging out with Xiuyun and Alethea a lot lately and i really enjoy every moment .

SECONDLY,
Im quarreling with 2 people now k

Number 1 : Candice ,
Just because i send the wrong text because im frusrated she's angry at me.
Ok i dont blame her for that .
Its probably my fault anyway
But your defination of ''bitching'' , girl ,
Its totally off track .
Showing sms about we keep quarreling IS NOT about bitching .
Its called venting out me frustration .
You didnt have to go to the extent of deleting everything :)

fuck it

2011-05-01T21:10:00.001+08:00

FUCK ELECTIONS AND LATE BUS ARRIVALS.

2011-04-25T02:29:00.001+08:00

sorry for not entertaining this blog. too lazy. I'm just here now to tell someone this :

never did have the chance to apologize for scolding you.
I'm sorry. ♥
& I guess I've completely forgotten about you.

coughing like mad now.
thanks for keeping my tagboard alive ! ♥

It's like , y'know?

2011-04-08T09:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday XT ! :D.

Chalet now with 2 pigs who're still sleeping ^-^ .
Chalet ltr make sure I win everyone's money -'- . LOL

When sometimes I realize I have fallen for another guy , I would find out he's actually not the guy for me and I'll fall back into my old footsteps and fall for you again

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2011-04-02T02:39:00.001+08:00

I tried . Im tired . I've given up .

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2011-04-01T03:23:00.001+08:00

You used to say one of my good points was being thoughtful (even though I had like only 2 good and over 20 bad).
But I really lost myself just now and became a selfish bitch.
I just wanted you to be more sincere once in a while.
I'm easily pleased , which is probably why many guys like to hurt me so bad.
You gotta know , the only reason why I was angry was because everytime I asked you to do your work quickly so you could have some rest and not sleep in class but you still msn and facebook your time away and complain about being tired the next day.
You made me sound like your mom and that you don't care about my words.
Am I even respected or appreciated in your eyes as someone who wasted her time and sacrificed so much for you for ?
Am I getting the treatment I should be getting ?

I'm so stressed now I swear. I held back my tears in many occasions. And they finally flowed out just now despite me having a really swollen eye that you knew of (FYI it got worse aft I cried).

" What do you want ? "
That's the question you've been asking me.
Well I'll tell you what I DONT want and that is :
I don't want to continue to feel this way yet I don't wanna ruin what we've built up together.
I don't want to break the ring that I worked so hard for by solo tagging.

I understand that you have to go to school and all. But can you try to understand me too ?
You have your problems. I have mine too.

I'm really really really really stressed up already.
I'm really on the verge of giving up. Please don't make me feel as if this friendship isn't worth holding onto at all .

Here I am

2011-03-27T02:54:00.001+08:00

So yea.
I had fun for the past few days. Don't really remember any events except for 2...

One is on kenny's birthday . Went hotpot with Jesslyn , Sora , Brendon , Kenny & Eric. Went Kbox too. No one sang :( . The hotpot part was great. Loved it so much. Haven't had so much fun since like forever. Had lots of laughs thanks to the birthday boy. :) . Happy belated birthday again !

The other one is movie with the same 6 people as mentioned above + dawnice , clement and jade (?) . Suckerpunch. Confusing movie but overall it was the best I've seen since December. I don't know why but everyone hated it so bad :( . I really loved vanessa hudgen's hair in the movie. Gotta try it out soon yea ?

So yea. That's overall of what happened this week I guess..

Oh by the way , clement is so right about having so much fun going out with Kenny and co. and forgetting about everything. I totally have to agree with him because I kinda felt the same.. When I'm with them , it's like all my troubles flew away cause there'll always be consistent laughter among them. Hanging out with them totally make me forget about the stress of tagging hearts for someone who doesn't even bother at all. Hanging out with them totally make me forget about how crazily in love I am with you since 2nd of December 2010. And yes. I still love you TGQ
I have nothing more to say anymore.. But.... LOVE PARTY TO BE HELD NEXT WEEK. ^^ . bye

Truth .

2011-03-22T03:27:00.003+08:00

Actually , im the one with problems .
Im the one who wanted you to leave , yet i dont want you to .
Im the one who wanted all this to happen , yet i expected that i would get hurt .
Im the one who asked you to break the ring , yet i care bear for you to do it .
Im the one who dont wanna tell you what i really want when you asked me .
Im the one who dont know what i really want .
Im the one who started this whole bullshit .
Im the one with periodic mood swings .
Im the one who's at fault .

Candice ,

2011-03-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

Happy 3rd month , my dear girl .

I cant say much anymore about our friendship .
Yes we have drifted .
And yet we're not doing anything to savage this friendship .
Im having a lot of troubles now , and im not telling anyone about anything so no one knows .
Many people came to me recently about their own troubles ,
And i adviced them while i cant even handle my own fcuking problems .
You say i dont understand you .
You can say im selfish .
You can say whatever you want ,
You'll still be an important friend to me , forever .
I've not given up .
Im just really troubled lately .
I havent touched my phone for quite a while cause its currently spoilt .
I didnt facebook much cause there's a fcuking stalker in my facebook who keeps liking my statuses even after warning .

You yourself is busy too .
Sometimes i dont reply your text cause either you gave me a dead end text or you make me really speechless (normally cause you made me speechless) .
I dont reply other people too .
Its not just you .
You have your exams and SYF coming up , so i understand you're busy .

Im always ready to hang out together , like i said , im so damn free now .
Even when poly start , i'll still be very free .

I WANT to savage this bond we once had ,
Do you ?
I still remember its our 3rd month today ,
Do you ?

2011-03-21T07:47:00.001+08:00

I really don't understand why you're so cold to me but you can be so nice to others. Is it because you know that I like you ?

You trying to make me hate you or something ? It's not working you know... If this continues break our freesia sua. _|_

Never again

2011-03-21T03:06:00.001+08:00

Hi all. I ran out from the chalet madness because it's too fucking wild for me >_> .
So yea. I dint sleep for like 3 days ? Although I did fall asleep in kj's house. But please lo. Not counted please ^^ .

Day 1,
Damn tired because of lack of sleep in the previous day . But still , overall , had fun with Cheryl , Edmund , Samuel and Kahjun although many things happened.... All were solved in the end. Ton over at kj's house and fell asleep _|_ . LOL . Their plans ruined by the great XT .

Day 2 , which is today.
Chalet again >_> . Everyone acting like mad people now and I sitting outside alone like emo Kia listening to song and waiting for bangala to attack me. Rofl.

I seriously need a long long break. From everyone. From Audi. From my laptop. From my family. From my friends.
Can't take this anymore.

All the couples around me are like always quarreling , it's kinda bothering me and making me think like damn far. Making me damn scared about looking for a love. I'm not saying you all are irritating or what.

Kbye.

Unsure

2011-03-19T06:36:00.001+08:00

No idea why all my feelings poured out like this just now. It's like I wanted to tell you everything but I can't

2 in the morning .

2011-03-18T20:36:00.001+08:00

TO YOU , WHO WOULDNT ANSWER MY CALLS
TO YOU , WHO WOULDNT LOOK AT ME

:'(

Broken

2011-03-16T19:45:00.003+08:00

Thank you <3

And sorry .

FAMILY - Father And Mother I Love You

But im sorry ,

To me , its only MILY .

I dont have a father like you , i seriously dont .

Ever since young you've never truly cared about me ,

You're in no position to scold me and everything .

From young i've never regarded you as my father .

To me , my dad died when i was young and you're just a random guy who lives here.

So what if you pay for the electricity and all ?

My mom does so much more than you .

She raised me up .

Did you ?

All you did was give me electricity and pay for my phone bills .

To be honest ,

Raising me up is simple .

I dont need electricity , seriously .

But all is too late :) .

Like i said ,

I have no father .

Never had , never will .

Im not only troubled by just ONE problem .

There're many things i need to talk about

Many people i need to talk to

But does anyone care ?

Im looking for someone who truly cares .

Not someone with a mask covering his true colors .

To someone ,

Yesterday i said i had to talk to you about something .

I still do .

I told angela to help me , but i dont think she did not cause she dont want to, but cause she dont know where to start and she dont want to feel like she's interferring with our thing .

I know i shouldnt involve her in this , but she's the only one who knows how i feel about you

I know you'll be reading this .

Yes , i do have feelings for you .

I dont know when they started developing .

I dont want anything in return .

I dont want you to take this opportunity to use me like how you did to other girls .

I may not understand you well , cause i dont want to interfere into your life .

I know you dont like it .

I didnt want to tell you cause i dont want things to become awkward between us , so i kept quiet..

Things are already damn awkward between us for me .

You feel nothing but i do..

I dont know why im like this .

You dont have to respond anything to this ,

You can continue pretending that i didnt write this ,

Im fine with it .

I dont expect any answer either .

k idw to make things awkward between us ,

Idw to ruin something i've tried really hard to built up .

kbye

2011-03-15T01:04:00.001+08:00

I just feel so goddamn confused right now.
I totally understand everything but idk why I feel this way.
It's like I can give you my all and you wouldnt even give a shit.
I'm so tired.
I really need a very long break from everyone..
Its so tiring to do something that someone else don't really put in any effort into..
I know you appreciate , but I don't feel like it at all..

Don't ask me who I'm talking about.
This post isn't meant for only one.
It's meant for many who take me for granted.
If you feel guilty after reading this then I guess you should show your appreciation.

Rofl. Jk Bout the last line
A hug from anyone would be nice though..

Kbye.

Misunderstood

2011-03-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

Stupid blogger cant upload pictures again :(
Went out for movie yesterday .
Nice movie .
Saw Xiuyun too ~
Coincidence ,

Had much fun last night .
2 LPs in a row , nice movie watched , slow and sleepy dinner.....

Sorry to attitude you at times , sometimes i myself dont understand my own attitude .
Upload pictures whenever blogger allows .
& Thanks for the aster <3

KBYE !

Worried

2011-03-11T11:05:00.001+08:00

Hello world.
I can't sleep AT ALL and my eyes are like -.- now. Fmlttm please.. Still damn worried about the heart bugged thing. Wonder when it'll be fixed.

I guess I'm a bit too serious this time.

Drained

2011-03-11T03:50:00.005+08:00

Hello all .

What a bad day it is :( .

Ken came my house and audi today cause i just got my 2nd laptop for poly but i still put audi into it just to tag hearts for Zess cause he wants a max ring .

Couple points got bugged cause we visited bro's cbp .

Damn suay i tell you .

We are so fucking innocent please .

We did nothing wrong please .

But we still fucking got bugged?

What fuck is this sia .

Seriously :< .

Almost make me cry out of stress............

Rofl

You can never know the truth because when you do , i know you're gonna leave me for good .

Im not the best there is , I will not be the last .

Im just doing everything for you .

I never thought things would end up this way , i swear .

I didnt have any intentions in the first place .

Why am i feeling like this now..

2011-03-10T03:17:00.002+08:00

18 hearts with bro :D

x16 , in your face .

1m in your face~

x9 in your face !

Cuphea letter <3

Hello all , i went RP today ,

The food there sucks ^^ .

I have stolen Zess's magical chain powers , h3h3 .

See my x16 and x9 , tsktsk~~

I got a mosquito bite on my face , ew

As for the letter , i do understand ok :( .

I never really got the chance to thank you for writing a poem havent i ?

Im not talented enough to write one for you though :P .

But i still get jelly most of the time :< .

Because I.....

2011-03-09T08:26:00.001+08:00

Hello all !
Im up early today :> .
Chatted with a noob last night.
Wanted to accompany him until his school starts but I got chased to sleep. Aw.
Hope he'll listen to me once and do his work seriously :< .

Appreciation

2011-03-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

Thank you for today <3

I guess things have taken a change ,

Awkward..

Hello

2011-03-07T05:24:00.001+08:00

Oh before I forget ,
Hello Blog stalker zf.
I know you're here reading this now ^-^ .

Falling bricks

2011-03-07T04:26:00.006+08:00

(have to colour code the paragraphs cause blogger's being a bitch)

Hay yaw :)

I wonder why audi only let the guys write the letter :< !

I have many things to say too ya'know :( .

Firstly ,

I remember on the 19th of February you told me my mom added you in Facebook .

Then i begged you to couple me because of my expiring tee T-T .

At first i regretted making at decision , and i know you (maybe) are too .

We took 8 days just to send 5 hearts ,

Wedding on the 28th ,

Daisy a few days later ,

Saffron on the 5th .

And erm

Secondly ,

Please stop sleeping without letting me know :(

I know you're tired and all...

But it scares me when you sleep so suddenly .

Stop eating so much too , it scares me .

Although im a meatball , and you're a bamboo pole ,

I only eat 1/8th of what you eat everyday .

Thats kinda scary , no ?

Thirdly ,

Thanks for all the advices you've given me , be it my mom / friends / love.

It may be pointless to do this , but still , im doing this to show im really thankful .

I bet you're gonna laugh at me for doing this -_-

I enjoy myself when im in Audi with you ,

Talking to you helps to destress even if you're cold and all...

You can really become a twinklefriend ^-^ or something similar .

Lastly ,

I know im naggy............................................

But im still 5 months older than you so beat that, bitch ^-^

Please do well in school and not let your mom worry about you

Although i do not know your background well and will not ask so much about it lest you're unhappy , i'll try my best to understand you more as time goes by ^-^

Phew , that was long :(

DONT LAUGH AT ME!

BB!

Feelings deep down inside ,

2011-03-07T00:36:00.003+08:00

To C1 (thats what she called herself -.-) ,

Me and C2 REALLY REALLY want you to come back to audi ,
And when you really do , i swear and promise to god and all other gods that i wont leave you alone no matter what happens <3
You know that my poly is near your 2nd house right ?
We can go out every Friday for dinner ok ? (see my timetable then update you again) .

And i apologise for misreading your text that day , but i was walking really fast and didnt really read properly , i know it made you feel like you're not important to me anymore , but you are , you will , and forever will be .
I know you're troubled and all ,
You know im always here ,
No matter how busy i am , no matter where i am ,
When you're troubled , i'll find a way to contact you ,
This i promise <3 .

You can ss this down as evidence and sue me next time if i fail to comply .

BB!!
Love you

2011-03-06T01:32:00.001+08:00

In your face

You're so right

2011-03-05T13:12:00.002+08:00

You're so right about everything this time , seriously .
I change a lot , i changed too much .
So much that problems start to surface .
Im sorry that i changed .

You have much more better friends than i do .
You'll have much more better friends than i'll have .

You'll be fine without me .
As you said ,
Im not important to you anymore , and that you're not important to me anymore .

Meh

2011-03-02T03:38:00.001+08:00

Meh , gonna do some random rant now because it's 3.30 am in the morning. Just wanna let out my feelings for a bit :( . You know like destress for a while. Been too stress lately , stress until insomnia. Just wanna tell you , I'm falling for you. Well. Meh. You'll never know who you are

2011-03-01T04:10:00.002+08:00

Press on image to see memo . LOL !

Hi all , im back to posting after a few days of no life tagging in audi .

Tagging fam points , LOL .

From rankless to 432(or higher) now .

Many thanks to those who helped, especially Sinyi and Zhifeng .

Seriously , if without them i think now audi has no fucking meaning and will be as boring .

At least there's meaning in audi now :(

We tagged for around a week ?

Rested for 1 day -- Saturday :)

I went out with Xiuyun and Sinyi on one of the days last week...

Kbox

Hope to do it again~

This time with more people like Jw'Sis :(

I miss going out with her !

I hope to meet Candice and Cheryl soon too ,

Miss them much~

Especially Candice :(

Jubeat again ok ? ~_^

Love muchys .

Hope this friday can meet Diana too

Wanna watch I am number four + Crap with her again :)

Miss crapping with her ,

I love you k ? = 3=

2011-02-25T19:28:00.001+08:00

Candice,
The fact is me and Candy arent really as close as you think we are anymore .
We rarely audi together anymore cause she busy watching her We got married
I audi with my classmates now and sometimes i afk and dont even audi

Things didnt change much to be honest ,
I still like the same guy , i still do the same thing everyday .
So how can you say things changed ?

Sometimes when you text me i dont understand cause i jsut woke up and im still blur and i need to read a few more times , But i scared that if i take too long to read you'll think i dont want to reply .
Its not that our sms time buay gam , is that now i keep sleeping until too late .

You still can text me , we still can go out ,
You know im damn free and i can pei he your timing also .
When we go out we can update each other about our lifes and etc .

So dont worry about drifting away,
Cause i have never thought about drifting away from you

And i really miss the times we had together ,
I know you're busy with school and all ,
Stress from homework and all
Stress from school , family and friends .
Im still here for you you know ?

All you need to do is send one text and i'll reply .
Even if its a late reply , i'll still reply .
Cause i can never ignore you .

Troubled

2011-02-18T04:02:00.002+08:00

Troubled in 4 in the morning
1 hour i was accused of something again for the 2nd time in a row
I fucking hate the feeling of being accused
I want peace .

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I'm guessing it's time.

2011-02-16T22:58:00.001+08:00

Well hi all
It's been a long time since I blogged.
Can't really think of what happened recently.
I'm too sick.
I only know one thing : I'm damn damn addicted to Kbox now .

Monday ; Valentines' day.
Went out with Kenny and Claudia.
They came over to my house at night.

Tuesday ;
LAN with ken because it's fun
Gavin keep calling me mrs tan. Rofl. Irritating Max.

Wednesday ;
LAN again WTF.

Tomorrow ? Hopefully I can meet Candice for Kbox ! Provided it's cheap.. LOL :D .

I take my words back

2011-02-16T00:29:00.001+08:00

You've changed too much.

I'm ending everything

2011-02-14T01:18:00.001+08:00

Kbox today.
Overall fun.

I'm ending all this tonight -- on valentines.
I'm so so so tired of this.
You didn't wish me a merry Christmas.
You didn't wish me a happy new year.
You didn't wish me a happy valentines.

You only wished me a happy Chinese new year.
What does this all mean..

Is asking you to notice me a hard thing to do ?
If it is then fine.

Sorry for disturbing you.
have fun later on.

Bye and I love you.
Happy valentines' love.

Confused

2011-02-11T08:51:00.002+08:00

Confused . :(
IDK who i really like
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Swensens with Kenny and Gavin yesterday .
Thanks for making me laugh LUL..
Good thing i didnt cry yesterday
In that atmosphere how to cry sia.
I also no more tears already.

Talked to gq on msn .
happygirl94 o(^o^o) !!
Slept at 11.30 .
Woke up at 8 .

Too early too early

Im not happy

2011-02-10T09:56:00.002+08:00

I really am upset man............
I've never cried so much in my entire life before :( .

I lost everything

2011-02-10T03:28:00.001+08:00

Lost everything. Tired of living. Tired of waiting.
Can i just die ? :( .
Thanks everyone for trying , but its too late .

Its just not right

2011-02-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

This post is to reply to tag . You dont have to read it if its none of your business

I dont like crowded places, I dont like to go out in a big group. 4 is already too much for me, And i already kept quiet because i dont want anyone to be upset . But you keep calling more and more people. I kept quiet on Saturday cause if i tell you on the spot you cant possibly ask your friend dont come right ? Then when you call me and say even more people are coming , i really cannot stand it anymore . I really dont like too many people cause i'll feel left out + I have nothing to talk to them about . I cannot face GQ anymore because of my attitude .

Idk if i still wanna go on 13th or not . I'll tell you again .

Lulz is the new Lolz

2011-02-06T13:04:00.002+08:00

This is going to be a long post...
LULZ OK SO

Monday ;
Was supposed to go K with Kenny Gavin JW and Bren ,
But plans change cause of pricing differences .
Abandoned Bren and JW and went slacking in Yishun instead.
LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULz
Then he and some friends decided to come down too
Went amk
And i run away from them
LULz .
In the end im being called 'emo' by almost everyone .
Thanks all........

Tuesday ;
AMK again with JW and Bren to make it up to them for abandoning them
Watched the Green hornet
Jay chou's engrish was damn hilarious .
Actually the movie is okay
But i was too tired to appreciate the movie + i feel so numb towards movies now LULZ

Wednesday ;
AMK for reunion dinner . At night watched top 50 kpop mv count down
2pm - i'll be back placed at 14 .
SNSD - Oh 1st
2pm - Without U 2nd . <3<3<3

Thursday ;
Went AMK to bainian .
Then went Khatib .
Decided to watch movie with family (minus dad)
Went arcade play jubeat with my sister LULZ

Friday ;
Marine Parade to bainian ,
Supposed to meet JW at amk .
But she got fired and she having headache so she go home and rest

Saturday ( yesterday , lulz ) ;
People come my house bainian ,
They play 21 with my mother .
Went to AMK to watch movie with them .
Green hornet again - .- .
Supposed to be happy day yesterday cause he got talk to me .
Then my mom ruined it -'- .
Thanks a lot , lulz .

Sunday ; ( today ? )
Slack at home and audi my day away

Monday ; ( tomorrow )
Out with Candice ! :)

No matter what you say , you can never change my views on him .

The past

2011-02-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

Back from movie with jw and Bren to make it up from yesterday's dua. Don't say I no good friend ah please. LOL

Chatting with Cheryl is still fun ley even though we never even meet. Haiyo. Cheryl~~ why your friend so sensitive one :( . She no proof we talking about her sia. nevermind la. She sure by now tell so many one sided story about us to her "friends" already. Hehe.

Our past was short , but sweet. One look at your face makes me feel like im on the moon. One word from your mouth to me makes me feel special. One breath you take makes me feel like wanting to live on , to continue breathing the same air with you.
But does that all matter to you ? Don't think so..

Karma exists .

2011-02-01T10:26:00.002+08:00

Ugh . Another busy week :(

Hate it maximumzxczxczxc

Went out with Cheryl yesterday to gossip about J..... LOL !

Fun max

Realised that someone isnt as simple as she is

One-sided stories yea ? :)

Left at 4.30 and went Yishun to find Ken , Gavin and Claire

Ken and Gavin keep calling me stupid cause they stand behind me for a very long time and i didnt see them .

I really didnt see them T^T

And then some things happened

Lol . Fuck my life

Went AMK at 8~9 .

Home at 10~11 .

Going meet JW and Bren today @ amk .

Wednesday evening going reunion dinner .

Thursday going Yishun and AMK

Friday going Marine parade

Saturday going AMK/somewhere else

Sunday emo at home dont ask me out

So even though it breaks my heart to see you yesterday playing around with your friends , i was still there because what everyone said was true , i do miss you . But i dont wanna see you . You know that i still like you and yet you're still playing . I dont wanna see you playing like this . I almost cried yesterday . I dont want to cry for someone like you .

Reply tag

2011-01-31T23:40:00.001+08:00

To jw : <3
To janelle : no need no need~
To SAN : <33333
to emoemo : thanks a lot. Love you too. Sorry for the attitude. I really very pissed off with gq

Update soon.
Bye.

Regrets in life

2011-01-26T12:39:00.004+08:00

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I got into RP's Integrated Events Management .
Im not upset , neither am i happy.....
I mean , i like the course , but i dont like RP >( .
Ah forget it...................... :(
I only got myself to blame for not studying.

Meeting Kotez and KJ @ Bugis ltr for Kbox partay .
Muahahz .

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BACK ! :)
Had such a Memoriable day today with Candice and KJ .
Yes.
Why ?
1. Candice step on my cute pinky finger , then it turned hot and i couldnt bend it . F4
2. I dont know why KJ and Candice keep laugh at me o_o
3. I had to walk , eat , and do everything else like a sissy thanks to Candice stepping on my finger
4. I keep make Candice cannot sing her songs
5. Candice keep molesting my phone like always

Went LAN again .
Hehe :B:B

A special shout out to my sisters <3<3

JCXJC's very own Janelle , Candice , Jiamin and Candy ; Although we not as close and active as before , quarrels pull us together and made us realise the importance of each other in our lives . This sisterhood has made a really big impact in my life . Thanks for being there always , sisters ! 29th's in 2 days yea ~_^ .

Chrysan sister ; Even though we're not as close , we can talk like how sisters talk to each other , happy to be your friend , loveeeeeeeeeeee you . Last long with Justin ok :B :B . Muamua <3

Jingwen sister ; Hoi dog . Glad you made it into your choice of school . Meet up more often hor , if i appeal into NYP i think we can spend more time staring at each other for another 3 years ok ^_^ .

Diana emoemo ; You're the one i want to thank most . I really really feel touched at what you're doing for me , everything . We're not even that close in the first place and you really really treat me as a good friend . I appreciate the things you do for me , i really do . That day , at Clarke Quay , while we were sitting down talking , you told me how you asked someone to come by sacrificing yourself . You have no idea how much it means to me . I love you ! Thanks for making my tag board alive ! :)

Bye all . :)
B ,
Although it was short , not even the start yet
It has reached the end.
You have your own problems , i know .
I have my problems too .
Maybe this is fate.

Hellohello

2011-01-25T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hellohellohello
Went Chinatown with Candice ytd .
Had fun ok
Hehe

JCXJC OI !
Janelle - MOST SOTONG
Candice - MOST KP
XT - 2 PARAGRAPH
Jiamin - SPAMMER
Candy - MOST IMBA
(Y) 291210 !

2011-01-23T19:12:00.001+08:00

Sorry everyone for being a bad friend.

Eye one two eat uuuuuuuu :B

2011-01-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

DONT LIKE CROWDED PLACES

Met JW sister today
So long no go out with her ^^
Had fun. LOL

To candice

2011-01-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ok maybe you're right,
I dont understand you.
But i do have more experience than you.
I do know more.
I just graduate from school,
So i know what kind of advice to give you.
I understand NA stress.
You're not dumb ,
you wont fail
but you keep saying you'll fail.
Most teachers talk cock cause what they experience is soooooo different from what we're experiencing now.
Last time was much more relaxing .
If you think Express is more relaxing than NA ,
You're wrong.
When you're in express ,
Everyone expect much more from you .
You'll never understand express stress , just like how i'll never understand NA stress.
Its fucking embarassing to get my kind of score in Express stream .
Everyone will look down on me more than people look down on NA stream.
If i go ITE i'll be throwing school's face.
Now i give you advice ,
Ask you study properly
Dont fail science
Dont fail maths
I offer to help
There're much more people worse than you and i .
Just that we havent met them only.

So now you wanna take this advice or not up to you
Im tired of quarreling with you already.
You wanna still be friends or not up to you

Like you said ,
You dont wanna lose me as a friend
Neither do i
One of the reasons is cause i dont have much good friends like you
Another one is because I can tell you everything without feeling awkward.
You dont find someone like that everyday you know ?
I dont even tell Candy much anymore.
I dont tell my other sisters much too
You know most about me and my love life / friendships
We know what each other think

I'll let you choose
I never was the best friend you ever had
And i wont be the last friend you'll ever have .

All my fault again :)

2011-01-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

Im too kind to everyone .
Too kind .
Im too Guillible
Too guillible .
:)

I dont feel appreciated at all.
I really wonder if people really appreciate me at all.
I've never really received a word of thanks from anyone.
I would be happy if I received ONE word of thanks for everything.
Just one person will do .

But i guess we'll never find that person :) .

Listen to my heart beat , it's no longer beating

2011-01-17T21:35:00.001+08:00

Everything was only a joke to you. I really turned to you when I had problems. I bet you were laughing at them while I was telling you. I trusted you because you said you would dote me as a friend. I was too stupid to believe you. Sun was right when she said you can't dote on friends. My bus passed giant just now and I immediately thought of you. It brought tears to my eyes. But I couldn't cry. I want to. I want to badly. But I can't. You knew that still liked you. When your friend used your phone to text and disturb me, you, as a friend, didn't ask him to stop. I feel so hurt. When sun called and put us in a conference, i heard you laughing like it was nothing. It was something. It hurts me so badly inside now I could just fucking die. I swear.. My heart hurts like fuck now and I fucking want to kill myself. I didn't know believing would bring me in such deep trouble. Is this what they call karma ? I've done too many bad things in the past. I guess It's time we clear those sins , no ?

You didn't even apologize.. That was what hurt me the most. I talked so much about you. I fell for you everyday , deeper and deeper. You said you didn't talk to me cause I didn't talk to you. So I did. And what did I get in return? What did I ever do to you? Why are you making me suffer like this hur?

我上辈子欠你的.
I'm sorry for loving you.

2011-01-16T23:39:00.001+08:00

~~MIA FROM FACEBOOK, AUDI, BLOG, TWITTER.~~

No one ever appreciates the things i do for them . But i still keep pleasing everyone . Why ? Because i just want everyone to be happy.
Candice , i give you advice for your own good , in the end , you just tell me you want to quit . Im fucking upset , sad , disappointed , angry .
Candy , you keep abandoning us for Gary . I feel so left out . So what if me and Gary buay song with each other ? Cannot play together ?

Sigh forget it . Im not gonna try anymore -'-
Bye all

You're number 1 in my heart

2011-01-16T00:39:00.002+08:00

Its 12am .
Happy birthday Sist. :)
This is my first year giving you a birthday present i suppose.
Hope you love it>_< .

Went out with Candice
Had a bad day i swear
Our coms blackout 4 times in less than 2 hours
Our dinner was ruined thanks to the fucking rain
Hope it'll be better on Wednesday

Hope you show up on Friday (L)

Its not the end of the world yet ,

2011-01-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

Packed week this week ! :)
Went to find MIA guy and his friends on Thursday
>_> my money

Went to watch The ghosts must be crazy AGAIN with MIA guy and brendon

Next week will be packed too !

Later in the afternoon : LAN with Candice
Sunday : Out with Sist
Monday : Class chalet
Tuesday : Mom's birthday
Wednesday : Out with Candice again !
Friday : Out with emoemo L)
Only Saturday and Thursday free ATM .

K!!
Blog again tomorrow

I love Candice !
DONT SAY I DONT LOVE YOU AH !!!

I love Candice

Because when i fell,

2011-01-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

Went out with Candice today !!
Haha
But before we met , something funy happened.
I went Tiong Bahru to find Candice .
Then i ask her to board the train , i boarded the train without her
Then i told her i was gonna wait for her at Outram
WHEN I REACH OUTRAM AND WHEN SHE REACHED OUTRAM ,
I BOARD THE TRAIN AND SHE ALIGHT THE TRAIN !!
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL...
so i decided to wait for her at city hall -_-

Reached .
Watched Ghost must be crazy and my Candice was so scaredddddddddddd LOL !
:)
Dinner at Clarke Quay
Didnt have time to eat to wonderful ice cream that Ken intro to me and Shuqi that time :(
Nevermind !!
Next time <3

TGQ ,
I still love you
I still haunt everyone about you
I still wanna hug you
I still wanna continue dreaming that one day we would talk again
I still wanna talk to you

You must be having fun avoiding me now .

Oooo the great is back !!

2011-01-11T19:00:00.004+08:00

Oh hi guys
Im proud to say that this blog is officially dead

Anyway
Its about time for a long update.........................................
Lets start from...

Last week , i saw gavin 4 days in a row
Monday : LAN w Gavin
Tuesday : Chalet with Gavin and Ken . My mom say Gavin have baby face hahahahhahaahah . Anywayz . We almost spoil the microwave there , thanks aluminium foil. I was watching powerpuff girls when they almost destroy the whole kitchen thanks to us feeling hungry . LOL ! Then we all sat together and watched powerpuff girls together. Until 3am
Wednesday : Chalet with them again . Ugh !! The most interesting part of the whole chalet was the sleeping part . Rofl !! Went Changi Airport T3 to have our brunch and we fucking got owned by the airport directory. Actually , i did . haha . Ok . then they went to colour some stuff.... ROFL >_> . i roamed around like a walking zombie :B . Went Chambers after that and Ken help me change my memo to XT love GQ . LOL !! Ok . BBQ @ night with Brendon , Ken and Gavin . and everyone else who was there -doesnt remember-

I dont remember what happened on thursday and friday hahahahahaa

Results were out yesterday and i can tell everyone , im disappointed maximum .
English B3
Chinese B4
Maths B3
POA B3
Combined Humanities C6
Combined Science D7

Science and Humanities are definitely not the subjects for me . ~_~ Totally pulled my whole aggregate down laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .
Disappointed sia.
Somemore i fail science , cannot go in much course AT ALL
I cant even apply for engineering , fuck my life :(

Ok im going to go back to talking on my PIG PBT !! with Candice and msn with JW
bye

, xoxo

Hello

2011-01-03T10:36:00.001+08:00

Hellooooooooooo~
I officially declare that working sucks !!!!
& i officially declare that audi rocks

Went Yishun at night last night to meet Kenny & Gayvin for movie ^^
Reach home at 12
Nothing much to say nao
bai

29th's :)

2011-01-01T01:24:00.004+08:00

Hi guys
Its 2011 ,
Time to tell everyone something cool....
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haha
Time for some dedis , no ? :) .
Most importantly , the dedis to my favourite ,
JCXJC !
The rest i'll do tomorrow ^^
-goes according to alphabet-

J - Jiamin'Sist
Dear sist , in your blog you say that we aren't gans but it feels like we're sisters right ? Because we are , ok ! :) . About your operation , dont worry , JCXJC sister's will be waiting for you to come out safely and healthyly < not a word . Remember what you say ah . Dont make JCXJC sad and worried about you . You know we love you ! <3

C - Candice'sist/tian/pig
Hi sist/tian/pig ! :) I love you maximum ! Dont let anything come between us ok ? I'll support you in everything you do . Love youuuuuuu i really do , i sumpa , cross my heart ! Its like we were meant to be sisters . and thanks for being here be it , love , friends , family . Thanks for accompnaying me when im sad about Hansel & GQ . And im sorry that im irritating :( . We should whine to each other more . hehehehee

X - XT ?!
Hi XT . Its time to move on with life and forget about that worthless piece of GQ ok ? <3 I know you can do it . Yes i just dedi to myself

J - Janelle'Horneh
Hi horneh ! We drifted apart when i went mia from audi because of o levels and because my dog com cannot download audi :( . But now that im back we're even closer than before . I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you . <3

C - Candy'sist
Hi dog , i demand you to stop drifting away from me ok ? You're the one i spend my new year with today . <3 thanks for accompanying me and make me no need emo in audi alone . Miss you and the past . And thanks for the ring............ HAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAH . We're gonna LP soon ok ?! ;wild !

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Gonna dedi for Jingwen'sist and Shuqi'QSD when i knock off from work later :)

My new year goal is..

2010-12-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

I finally have audi in my com !
kbye

I miss your smile

I miss your laugh

I miss your voice

I miss your hug

Most importantly ,

I miss you :(

Get well soon

I dont need you to text me

I know you'll be fine without me

I know you'll laugh more without me

Good luck for Sec5

School is starting soon

Stop fooling around

Remember ,

You promised you'll listen to your mother ^^

What goes around comes back around ,

2010-12-26T02:10:00.002+08:00

Lan with Candice'Tian , KJ (pcc king) and Candice's friend today .
Enjoyed it ttm :)
Hope you liked your present !

I still owe Kenny his present :)
So like i gonna go sleep now.

Kenny, remember our bet horh !
If by 010111 he no text me = you owe me pizza hut
But , sadly , if he texts me = i owe you a nice meal that you have to finish

Flora , remember our bet too !
If i text him before he does = you ffa me in maple
If he texts me before i do = i can reply him & i win something naise (ihope) LOL

Quarrels , arguments , i hate them a lot

Especially quarrels and arguments with you

Yes being friends with you is tough

Not because i still like you

Is because of the way you treat me

Its too nice

I rather you be cold to me

I fell

2010-12-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

Hi guys
Guess who's feeling happy today !
YES
ME MUAHAHAHA

Went to work today
Super unhappy with the bitches there
Anyway today is last day so i dont give a damn anymore :)

Lunch w Jw , Bren and Donovan who came after
Rushed my food but in the end Jw wasnt feeling well and didnt go to work so..........
GET WELL SOON , BITCH . I LOVE YOU

Met Kenny and Gavin to get Shuqi's cake
Got Candice's present(2 ok)

Ken and Gavin came up to my place and stoned there while i went to pick Shuqi up from hougang mall
I played Hurricane Venus through my pink lappy
And i sang it out loud when BoA sang VENUS !
Yes i sang it as Penis
I had fun today although it was just like stoning at outside but not spending money .

LOL !!!

So, you webcam-ed me today and you looked super cute <3

Although i blocked my camera and refused to talk through the mic

i think you got pekchek then you tutn the webcam off

Sad much..

Actually i miss you so much

I want to talk to you everyday

Being like this , im satisfied enough <3

But...

We werent meant to be, stop flirting with me

You're making me like you more.

A new life ? I dont think so

2010-12-23T21:51:00.002+08:00

Hi guys
School to work .
Hated it ttm man
So many irritating people

Went compass buy his present .
Wrote a short (ok not so) letter
Went Giant with Ken and Gavin :)
Slacked there 2 hours(or less)
Didnt know my 2 17-yr old friends are so childish
H3H3
I just stoned there.................................

He told me the bear is cute and that the letter was sweet and that the handwriting sucks~

Stalked much ?

2010-12-23T01:30:00.003+08:00

Wow..
I just gained one stalker without knowing :(
What did i do wrong this time ?
Whats wrong with posting whatever i want?..................
Where did all the freedom go to T_T

Whatever i post , 50% of it are assumptions ,
if you feel guilty and stalk me and tag me with ridiculous things ,
it just shows me how guilty you feel about doing me wrong

Yea you know who im talking about :)

i still rmb the date we were together, in maple .
071210 .
I rejected you , then before you left , i told you , if you wanted it, its possible and thats how it all happened

Love the way you lied .

2010-12-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hey
Its officially one week after our mini hooha
I just wanna tell you i miss you and i wanna talk to you , i really do
I got so upset just now, and the first person that came to my mind was you

I went crazy in audi today , talking about pcc..
I had my reasons , well , i cant tell just anyone

I miss you
I dont care if you end up with her in the end,
I just want you to care

Meeting Kenny & Shuqi(maybe) for Giant tomorrow .
Kenny gonna shop
Im gonna shop
We're gonna shop
(Y)

Bai

Fickle-minded

2010-12-21T19:45:00.002+08:00

I realise that I've become more and more fickle-minded .
WTF
Yea
I keep asking Ken to go Giant with me cause i dont wanna go alone , and then i say i dont want go anymore then awhile later i feel like going again T__________T
Save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

I really need to shop for christmas presents for my loves .
:( .
I need a total of.....like 4 ~ 5 .
Headache zxc

Its a brand new world out there .

2010-12-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hi all :)
Went out with Jingwen Brendon and Donovan again
Went for LAN at Iluma!
My favourite ^^
Candice was there too <-- Lol
So was Crystal .
They came over to say hi and my friend said this
''Why your friends so weird one , come to you and say hi and go away'' LOL !!
LAN for 3 hours.
That loser Candice keep going maple and audi :B !
I coupled Joz <-- hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahaahahahahaaha

Hotpot with the 3 <3
Cabbed home .
11.11 just ended

Dear god,
for 11.11 ,
i wish that he'll be happy with her , i really do .

If you dont love someone, dont mislead her

2010-12-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

Gq ,
I dont know why you had to lie . You knew how hurt i felt from the previous relationship i had . Yet you played , toyed and threw me away after playing . It may be fun to you , but its not fun to me and the people around me who suffered all my grumbles . You said you wouldn't be with me 'cause our lifestyles weren't suitable . But we both know that you were lying . Im not being a bitch by posting this . That Wednesday , that hug , those kisses , were fake , right ? You even told me ''we weren't supposed to do that much'' that day . But still , you took my breath away . Although you pulled away 'cause you were afraid of all the people walking around . During the movie , you placed your hand near mine , i used my fingers to play with yours , and we started holding hands . It was so sweet , i swear . I've never felt so happy during a movie before , even though the movie sucked . You didn't let me bring you home that day . We could've spent a longer time together , but your mom called .
Right now , i dont know what you're doing , who you're with . Normally you'll be home , online , at 10pm , or at most, 10.30 . But recently , after we stopped talking , you didn't log in at all . I started to become suspicious . Of course , who am i to feel this way ? You're allowed to have a girlfriend . But must it be her ? Sigh . Im totally speechless now . You told me you knew you were in the wrong for playing with my feelings .

Thanks for stabbing my heart .

Love , XT .

2010-12-19T01:16:00.003+08:00

Ok............
Mental breakdown for a few days
But im back and ready for action :)

Anyway
Im only posting 'cause some bitch with the name Candice asked me to
I was too lazy to , yet i still came back
Haha...........

So..
Last week was hectic & wicked.
Loved it ttm.

Monday - slacked at home

Tuesday - Went to work with Jingwen and Brendon , After that i went to meet Gavin and Kenny at Yishun and we headed over to Marina barrage where they decided to fly some kite . It was cool ~ It flew so high up h3h3 . At night went to find someone.............................

Wednesday - Movie with Diana and co. Started out sweet, ended bitterly. I'll never forget what happened that day .

Thursday - The saddest day of my fucking life after some Hansel Yeo stepped out of it . Yea FML man .

Friday - Ton with Gavin , lan with Kenny and Gavin . h3 . Finally knew the truth on Friday . Everything was just a game right from the very start :). Went home at 7.30 , slept at 9 until 5 .

Might be meeting more people for lan tomorrow~
Meeting Candice next week on the 24th ! :)
Cant wait , you owe me 3 ice cream , bitch

Ok Candice .
Happy ?

2010-12-16T18:12:00.002+08:00

if you're reading this , you suck